Remembering my dad.

My dad was a great Jim Reeves fan. When my sisters and I were younger, that was all we heard.
There is a radio in the bedroom at the cottage and it is has an alarm on it.
I heard it on and went in the bedroom to switch it off. I stopped and sat on the bed and listened as tears rolled down my face. I heard Jim Reeves singing "I love you because" and felt like my dad was in the room with me.
I am a very big sceptic and don't believe in anything unless I have proof.
This was so weird but it felt like it was a message. This all happened just after I had written my blog.
If it was you dad, thanks, it was just what I needed and I love you so much too..

Remembering my father

Philip Northmore
1937 - 2006

My father died 2 years ago today and it feels like I am reliving that day again. The pain hasn't gone away. I still miss him so much.
To this day I have always thought that chemotherapy took him from us. It destroyed every cell in his body, good or bad, and brought this wonderful man to his knees. It turned a very young 68 year old into something he never was, a frail old man.

I will light a candle to his memory today and when I get back home, I will visit the cemetery and lay some flowers for him.

Dad, If your listening, I love and I know you are around, I can feel you. I know you are supporting me through this time in my life and you give me the strength to fight back and help others in my situation. Together we will make a difference.
Thinking of you always and never forgetting you

Debbie x x

Remembering Erna

I had an email today from a friend of a lady I met in Germany, Erna.
I met Erna in May when I went for my first Chemoemolization treatment in Germany.
We both waited in the ward for the nurse to tell us we could leave the hospital and imagined our water being a cocktail.
There was a picture of the human body on the cup the water was in. It was very detailed with intestines and organs clearly marked out as it was promoting the CT agent used to illuminate the orans for a scan..

We had to change that and decided that we weren't in a hospital in Germany, we were lying on the hot sand in the Caribbean drinking "sex on the beach".

We were both in hospital with very serious illnesses but managed to rise above it.

She had a great sense of humour and we hit it off right away.
We had a giggle and it was good to find someone on my wave length.

Unfortunately, Erna passed away on 1st August as she was very ill with Liver cancer.
Her friend emailed me to tell me.

This has been heartbreaking as we had become good friends through email and I will miss her.
Todays blogs are dedicated to Erna.
She was and always will be a truely wonderful lady.
Condolences and special thoughts are sent to her family and friends.

Here's to you Erna, a sex on the beach cocktail which I raise to you. I will never forget you and your wonderful spirit.

BBC local news

I was looking through the internet and found the BBC local broadcast of my interview.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/england/7521723.stm

I have had so many people contact me since this broadcast asking about the treatment. I am so pleased to be able to give something to sufferers of Mesothelioma and, hopefully, it will work for them as well.I also found the Christmas tree one, I am adding it below.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/player/nol/newsid_7090000/newsid_7093000/7093019.stm?bw=bb&mp=wm&news=1&nol_storyid=7093019&bbcws=1

While looking for these I found a really good interview with an insurer. The report is about Des Murphy, another innocent person doing a days work and happens to have asbestos he is working with. He contracted Mesothelioma and has died since. The reporter for BBC north west is relentless with her questions. I thought it would be good to add it and watch as the insurer squirms at the questions being fired at him.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/player/nol/newsid_7250000/newsid_7255800/7255836.stm?bw=bb&mp=wm&news=1&nol_storyid=7255836&bbcws=1